Changed the due date

My nurse called today. She scared me a little with 4 missed calls and a very vague voicemail. But all is well. The baby is a little on the small side for 9 weeks. So they're thinking we conceived a little later, making the due date June 4 instead of the last week of May. I like June better anyway =)

My Gummi Bear

I don't know why I was nervous about the dr appt. Liane (RN/midwife) is amazing! We get to meet Dr Campaigne next time. Liane answered all of our questions, was supportive of our biker lifestyle - told me to ride as long as I'm comfortable! - and was so excited and proud of my weightloss journey with the band. She said the baby will take what baby needs and to continue eating healthy but not worry about if I'm eating enough, baby will be great! We're going to watch baby's growth and if it's not growing according to schedule, then we'll make eating changes as needed.

Liane asked us is we had any feelings on the sex. We said we just want healthy, no preference on boy or girl. She said - but what do you feel?? Our answers were surprisingly similar. My husband said 'I feel like we're going to find out it's a boy, but it'll end up being a girl.' I said 'I try to imagine it as a girl but everything in me denies it and says boy.' It was awesome to say that out loud and hear Hubby's thoughts. We talk about everything involving baby, but somehow hadn't told each other our feelings on gender!

Unfortunately, we did not get to hear the heartbeat. The ultrasound tech is only in the office on Tues and Fri. HOWEVER... we did get to SEE the baby!!! Liane is a woman of many talents and can work the video part of the sonogram machine =) Baby is so beautiful!!

1st Dr Appt Today

I'm getting anxious. I've done some research and read reviews and experiences about the doctor we've chosen to see. But meeting someone new and beginning that important relationship when already pregnant is a little nerve racking.

The best part though - is how much I love everything about Nurture OBGYN. Dr Campaigne is very skilled and knowledgable. And her nurse, Liane, is a lisenced midwife. With all the questions we have and different birthing options we're interested in learning more about, they really are a great match for us.

9 weeks

Wow! Baby is about the size of a grape. Fingers have formed and toes are separating. The heart is almost finished separating into the 4 chambers and the sex organs are forming! So much ing on this week.

As for me... The nausea is starting to go away, as long as I watch what I eat. And 'pregnant-brain' is getting better too. I don't feel quite as dumb and ditzy as I did a few weeks ago. We're going to the doctor in a few days. I can't wait to hear baby's heartbeat!!

The Blander the Better

Basically, I don't want to eat... anything. My appetite is completely gone. And when I do get hungry, I want just enough flavor for it to not taste like cardboard.

First trimester sucks!! I keep saying I hope baby doesn't crave pickles, anything but pickles! But right now, I'd eat pickles just to desire flavor!!

For Thanksgiving, I will be thankful to be in my 2nd trimester, that's for sure!!!

8 weeks

Baby is about the size of a large raspberry. It's arm joints are starting to bend. It's growing ears, eyelids, and intestines.

How cool is that?!?!

Mama's having a hard time this week though. I have a bad bladder infection. My allegies are killing me. And apparently, baby doesn't like peanut butter!! I had toast w/ peanut butter this morning and have been so crazy nauseous ever since.

How can a child of mine not like peanut butter??

On the plus side - we went to a wedding on Sunday. My husband and I danced like maniacs! It was incredible!!!

Blueberry

I got to tell my Grandma in person!! That was sooo exciting and a memory I will cherish forever =)

At 7 weeks, the baby is about the size of a blueberry. So I wrote a little note from Baby to Gram and put it in a gift box filled with blueberries. Her expression was priceless!

Of course - I took a photo of the gift box before she arrived!!

Then yesterday we announced on Facebook. So everyone should know now. I hope I didn't miss anyone!!

Oh Brother... Where Art Thou?

I am blown away but God's unique and extremely personal ways of caring for us.

Last week, I cried and wrote that my little brother didn't seem to care that I've been trying to reach him. This is the brother that I grew up with my entire life. The brother I've laughed and cried with and shared many adventures with. Well, yesterday, he uncaringly told our mother (b/c he still talks to her sometimes) that he already knew I'm pregnant and just didn't have time to call me. I cried, again. But it didn't hurt as much as last week. I know in my heart that I will always love him, but if he really doesn't want me in his life, I'm done trying.

After finding out I need 4 new tires on the jeep and one had a screw in it, both motorcycles need new rear tires, and being naueous since about 2pm yesterday, I just wanted to fall on my couch and stay there for pretty much ever. But God sent me a smile =) About that time, I received a text message from my other brother.

If you did not know, my bio-father has 3 other children. The oldest he gave up for adoption and I got to meet when I was 20, he was 14.

I found out I was pregnant exactly 2 weeks ago. In that time, Tom has sent me at least 5 "how are you feeling" texts. Today's was the best one.

---> Feel better! A happy sis makes me happy!
<--- Thank you brother!
---> You're my sis. Of course I'm going to do anything to make you happy!
<--- I love you! You just made my day!
---> Good! i've got many more day-makers in stock too anytime you need. its a firesale! we are overstocked and everything must go! good days, great days and spendivorous days! all must go! Ask now, get 2 for 1! Not a limited time offer!

God showed me once again that not only am I not alone but that I have more than one brother to love and love me back =)

Sooo sick

This kid is killing me and it's not even here yet. I really should enjoy the days without 'morning sickness' instead of worrying that it means something... b/c WOW! Today is the worst so far. Even when I thought I had a virus the 2 weeks before I found out. All those days combined are nothing compared to today.

Yet, I'm a good Mommy and still going to work. Looking forward to not waiting tables any more. As much as I love it, it's very difficult when all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die until it stops.

Do companies hire pregnant women?

Frustrating Doctors

I know that not everyone has to plan their life months in advance. And that some people have the privilege and finances to change their schedules at the drop of a hat. I DO NOT. So it's very annoying and frustrating to get a call saying my doctor will be out of the office the day I have my appointment.

That appointment was already TWO WEEKS after we found out I'm pregnant. And the next time available when my husband and I are able to go together is ANOTHER TWO WEEKS from the original appointment.

Needless to say - I'm pissed. We've been talking about finding a new doctor anyway b/c we didn't want to use the hospital that my doctor is affiliated with. I guess this is the push in that direction.

Feeling Better

I haven't had any nausea the last three days =) It's been wonderful! But it's also a little worrisome. I may hate being sick, but at least when I'm sick, I know everything is working properly. But I don't feel like anything is wrong. My body tells me it's ok and this is supposed to happen. It's just that no nausea with increased cramping makes it hard to not let the devil steal my joy.

I know my GOD is taking care of me and my baby and we are going to be happy and healthy.

2 Corinthians 10:5
... capture every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

Colossians 3:2
Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.

1 Peter 5:7
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.

Philippians 4:6-8

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.

A Monkey's Uncle

There's a great thing on facebook mobile that tells you if a email has been read. So if say, you email your estranged brother to get him to call you so you can tell him he's going to be an uncle, and he doesn't call... facebook will confirm that he did at least receive the email. And you can choose to once again have your heart broken by the person who used to be your baby brother. Or you can realize for the thousandth time that he's not worth your time and effort. Or both...

Happy Mommy!!

Just realized I'll be 30-36 weeks during bluebonnet season!!!
Best maternity portraits EVER!!!

Cramping...

I know my uterus I changing and expanding. But it's still scarey.